Books! The best weapons in the world

Books are truly amazing things and I absolutely adore reading, although quite admittedly I haven't actually done it for a long, long time.

Reading used to be something that would help me a lot. It was a way for me to tune out of the world. I'd turn everything off, relax and it would help me to forget life problems. I love different worlds they can transport you to, the different people they introduce you to, making you think you've known them for years. The fact that books can cause you to fall in love with a character when you know they are not real…boys in books are the best kind and should be real, why aren't they real?

I've found some really amazing books out there and I love the feeling of not being able to put a book down, no matter how tired you may be, because the book is so amazing.

The magic held within a book is something of a different world. It's insane where out imagination can take us to when reading. We can travel across county, worlds even time and space. Someones worlds can help you to set the scene and the people, which often results in you imagining this story like it's real life in your mind, like it's a past memory.

I miss the nights of curling up with a good book.

So I came up with a plan…I am going to start reading again and I am really excited about this! I feel it will help me to sleep, it will relax me before bed and might actually make me more of a stress free person. I'm going to read every night, trying to read at least one book every week and I can't wait to get stuck in. I might even start posting reviews on the book I have read, I'm not entirely sure about that yet but I will keep you informed.

So the first book I will be reading (as soon as it arrives) will be Giovanna Fletchers "You're the one that I want" and I must admit, I am super exited to start reading this book, I have wanted to for so long! Hopefully it will arrive soon.

Reading is a wonderful thing, there's so much magic held within them, don't let it go to waste!
xo

I want to break free

I feel like I'm trapped in one moment in time, nothing new happening, nothing to look forward to. It's just the same thing day in and day out, I need to get away…

I need to travel. I need to see what the world has to offer! I need to get out of my situation. All I want to do is start my life and I just can't.

The world is so big, so beautiful and I am stuck in this little town with nothing interesting every happening. Sometimes I wonder what life would be like for me if I was to live in a different country…maybe I would still feel the same, maybe I wouldn't.

It's hard to look around me and see everyone with their life planned out in front of them, with their jobs, their houses and children. It makes me wonder whether staying in education and going to university was a good idea. It has resulted in me not being able to start my life and that's all I want to do right now, I want to be free. I hate having to worry about getting assignments in on time and the one thing I cannot wait for is to not have to worry about getting an assignment in on time, it has resulted in so much stress. If there's one thing I hate about education it would be the fact that you're not free until it's over, you have to take your work home with you and you never, ever get a break…I need a break. I need to be able to feel stable and happy, with no stress. I hope that's what comes once I have graduated, I hope this isn't a permanent feeling. I have never in my life been so stressed over something as I have over university.

It sucks noticing how my life has nowhere near started in comparison to others. Those who didn't attend university now have jobs and children and for me? If that was to happen right now I would feel far too young, but I am 20 now and I think I forget that. We're not 16 anymore.

I'm going into my final year at University next month, it has absolutely flew by but it has been the most stressful experience of my entire life and I hope to never feel this much stress again, ever in my life. This is the end, it's finally going to be over! I mean I have enjoyed it, but by God have I hated it too.

I'm just looking forward to what the future has to hold, I'm looking forward to being free, having the time to relax and not worry about having that one assignment done on time. I can't wait to travel the world.

My life is about to begin and I hope the world is ready for me...
xo

Goodnight Robin Williams

Losing an actor who is loved by many across the world is a hard thing to lose.

I am truly saddened to hear about the death and loss of Robin Williams. The world today has very few truly amazingly talented people, he was one of the worlds greatest. A fantastic comedian and actor, constantly had me laughing until my sides hurt and it is truly horrible to know he will never be in a new film. You will be missed, hugely, your films have brought smiles to so many peoples faces, I wish someone could have brought one to yours.

"You're only given one little spark of madness. You musn't lose it"

“GOOOOOOOOOD MORNING VIETNAM! IT’S 0600 HOURS. WHAT DOES THE “O” STAND FOR? O MY GOD, IT’S EARLY!” 

Hearing about a story such as this one only makes you think about how you could be one of the most amazing people in the world, you can be hilarious, talented and famous, but that does not mean that you are happy. Money and fame can't bring you happiness. The loss of Robin Williams really shows us this. 

Depression is a horrible thing, you shouldn't ever have to deal with it alone, no matter who you are. If you feel depressed, so low that you can't get back up, no matter how many days, weeks possibly even months that pass, then I urge you to go and see someone, i urge you to do this for your benefit and if not for you then for those who love you. Depression is horrible and you don't have to deal with it alone, you don't have to live with it silently, speak out and get the help you need.

Get the help you need, you deserve it, the world would be a horrible place without you!

RIP Robin Williams, my heart is with your loved ones on this sad day

xo

Flash bursts

Isn't it crazy to look around you and think about how one day, not so far from this one today, you will be an elderly person, like those whom you may talk to on the bus, it's a completely crazy thought…

It'll happen in the blink of an eye. Suddenly everything will have changed and the only time you will notice is when you stop looking back at the days gone by and start looking at the years, that will be the moment you will wonder about how you got to where you are. Days turn into weeks, into months and into years, suddenly you're 60, 70, 80…That's the moment you will look back, the moment you will still feel as old as you do right now. That moment will come, the moment you look into the mirror as your once young self and notice the change. You will look back upon the amazing life that you have  behind you and wonder how you got to this moment in time so fast…it's as if you batted your eyes and suddenly you're much older than you once were. There will be flash bursts of past memories, they will all hit you at once and the only thing you will be able to do with them is smile…that's the moment you realise that you have made life your own.

Have you ever walked down the street or sat on the bus and noticed those whom are much older than yourself and wonder what they used to be like? When they were at the age we are right now…Their teenage/young adult years are now just a distant memory, a story to tell their loved ones. They are now parents, grandparents, possibly even great grandparents, one day that will be us.

When surfing the internet the other day I stumbled upon the following quote...


“Isn't it funny how day by day nothing changes, but when you look back, everything is different...”

― C.S. Lewis

This quote actually inspired me to write this post and it's possibly one of the truest quotes i have ever read. When you look at your life day by day you don't notice the change, everything happens gradully and over a long period of time, so long that you don't notice the changes. As soon as you look at the bigger picture, look at all the years that have passed by, you will notice every possible change, that's the moment it will seem like an eternity away. 

The future is always a interesting topic, it's quite a daunting thought, one day we will not be so young, so skinny and so pretty. You will never be as young as you are now, you will only age, but that just means you grow as a person too. The future is a wonderful thing, something to be excited about and you should be excited!

Life is just flash bursts of past memories, one day they will catch up with you and that's when you will notice how much has changed.

xo

One sheep…two sheep…three sheep…four!

I often find it really hard to sleep at night. I hate it but I love it at the same time…

I love staying up late because I find the evening to be the best time of the day and I just don't want it to end. Going to sleep means the end to the day and that soon the troubles of the next one will begin, for instance work or school…The night has to end at some point though, doesn't it? It's actually quite weird that I like to stay up so late, you'd think that me being someone who adores sleeping that I would love to go to bed early to get as much sleep as humanly possible. Don't get me wrong, the idea of going to sleep early and waking up early the next day feeling refreshed sounds wonderful but no matter how much I think about doing that and plan to do it, it still never happens.

I usually spend my nights watching films or playing on some kind of gaming console, not your cup of tea? That's okay everyone different. I usually end up getting into bed anytime from 2-3am and from there my night goes downhill because no matter how much I try, I struggle so much to sleep.

I find myself lay in bed thinking about everything that could ever possibly enter my mind. The main thing I end up thinking about is the future, what it's going to hold and how scary it is. I sometimes come up with screenplay ideas, sometimes I completely forget them but when I think they are really good I pull out my phone, open up the notes and write down random words to help jog my memory. Sometimes I think about how different my life could be if any aspect of it was different, for instants if I lived in a different country, it's quite an interesting thought. I must admit on many occasions, I have found myself counting sheep and if you have never tried it I insist you don't, it doesn't work. I just start thinking about how counting sheep is going to help me sleep and I begin to over think. I find myself over analysing every aspect of my life. Sometimes music helps me sleep, but sometimes when listening to music I find myself thinking about being that musician, which is a little odd, I imagine being in my own music videos. Sometimes i just think about how I need to sleep which causes me to think about how I need to stop thinking, which causes me to start thinking about how I need to stop thinking so I can go to sleep, which sends my brain into overdrive. Sometimes I do find myself with my phone in hand constantly refreshing every social media site in hope something will interest me.One huge factor that stops me from sleeping is heat, I hate being too warm when I'm trying to sleep and it will totally ruin my night. Another thing is sound, when I'm trying to sleep, little sounds absolutely drive me insane.

I feel like I'm rambling on a bit here...

The point is that I find it hard to sleep, sometimes it's a real challenge, once I am asleep it's amazing. I do wish I could sleep earlier because I always pay for it the following morning, but at the same time I don't want to sleep. Maybe it's the technology. Maybe I should stop using it at a certain point of the night and just relax, maybe even read a book, that's some food for though.


Well, now I'm back to thinking again…

xo

Inked up!

These days there are quite a lot of people whom are into the tattoo craze. Quite a lot of people have at least one, whether it is on show or hidden, and quite a lot of these people go back for more. There are still people who don’t like them, which is perfectly fine.

As someone who has always had a big love for tattoos and has recently just got my first one (many more to follow), I have noticed that for whatever the reason, people who dislike your tattoos insist on letting you know. I completely understand why people dislike tattoos and I have nothing against that, people are allowed their own opinions. At the end of the day not everyone is going to like your tattoo, the thing that bothers me is when people feel the need to treat a person differently or even insult them because of these choices.

I’ve found that as soon as you do decide to get a tattoo, people will start to look at you differently, especially if it’s very noticeable. People are going to dislike them and they are really going to let you know and it’s going to bring you down. I’ve never personally had someone come up to me making remarks on how much they dislike my tattoo, but I know people who have and I know it can really hurt. The looks are just as bad. Those people who are sat there staring at you, whispering under their breath, they are just as bad. I dislike people being mean to me in anyway, especially being such a sensitive person, so I often find behavior like this hard to deal with. The moment someone starts a conversation with you about how much they love and appreciate your tattoo is going to make all of these bad vibes disappear. From first hand experience I can tell you that someone really appreciating your tattoo can really make your entire day. At the end of the day, as long as you are happy with the way you look, why should anyone else’s opinion matter?

I’ve noticed a lot of older people really dislike tattoos, especially those who are mothers or even grandmothers. I guess they just really don’t like to see their children alter their bodies in such a permanent way, which I really understand. Parents believe they created something so perfect that something like this could ruin that creation. This isn’t true.

Tattoos are a way of presenting to everyone who you are as an individual. I don’t think that there is anything wrong with expressing your personality on your body, it’s a very personal thing and it should be respected whether you like them or not.

I think it’s a beautiful form of art. Some people do get tattoos for stupid reasons, maybe because they were drunk or for a bet, but that’s for them to deal with.

People with tattoos can be really fascinating, especially when finding out the stories behind their tattoos. Some people get their tattoo for no other reason than they wanted it, which is perfectly fine. If you want it go ahead and get it! It doesn’t affect anyone else and his or her opinions don’t matter one bit. If it doesn’t affect you personally then I don’t see how what tattoos some has or the reasons behind them affects you.

 People with tattoo's can be really fascinating; the stories behind them and the meaning of the tattoo can be really interesting to hear. Some people just get them because they want them, is there really anything wrong with that? If it doesn't affect you personally then I don't see how it's such a big problem. 

Once you decide to take the plunge and get a tattoo you will find it very hard to not go back and get another. I’ve noticed a lot of people who have had one have been itching for their next. It’s an addiction. It’s not the end of the world, surely being addicted to tattoos is better than being addicted to drugs or any other self destructive substance, so take that into consideration.

 I would insist that if you are not sure about getting a tattoo then you shouldn’t do it. Removing one is very expensive and it’s just a whole lot of wasted money in the end. Ever since I was 16 I couldn’t wait for my first tattoo…that was until I turned 18 and realised I probably wasn’t mature enough to decide what I wanted, because it’s a big decision and should never be taken lightly. I’m glad I did wait because the tattoos I would have got then I would not have wanted now; I’d have regretted them on a huge scale. Tattoos are going to change your life, you’re going to get people who love them and people who hate them, there’s nothing you can do about that. I’m so happy I finally decided to get my first tattoo; I can’t wait to add more to my body.

I can’t wait to express myself with who I am and what I love, it’s going to be an exciting journey.

xo