Reasons I am 20 and single

People fall in and out of love all the time and it's a huge part of life. 

Recently I have come to realise that there is no rush in finding the truest form of love. For we are still young and that should be enjoyed. These are the days we will never get back, this is our youth and we should live it for us. These are the years that we should be spending building a life for ourselves, a career, travelling and being happy. The time will come when love get's it's turn in life, that's the moment you start a family, expanding the life that you have created for yourself.

Never rush your life, enjoy being young whilst you are still young.

I'm currently 20 and single and do you know what? I'm loving it! Life's easier when you are living your life for you rather than for someone else. Your 20's are your selfish years and I aim to take advantage of that, I'm going to live my life how I want to, just for me. I'm going to finish uni, build a career and travel as much as possible.

Here's a list of the reasons I am currently single…enjoy?

Staying in > going out.

I have noticed a lot of people, some who I have been close to in the past, really don't understand my need and want to stay in rather than go out. Clubs are most certainly not my scene, I can't think of anything more that I would hate doing. I'd much rather spend my Friday evening with my xbox completing a Halo campaign or ranking up as much as humanly possible on Call of Duty (Maybe it's not a humane amount…maybe it's a little excessive) or even sat watching episode after episode of any television show on Netflix (Because I will watch them all, I don't care what they are about)

I want to travel.

Is it just me or does it become harder to travel the second you commit to a relationship? You might not agree with this, but your idea of traveling compared to mine might be a completely different thing. I want to be able to pack my bags and spend days, weeks, months or even years in a country just because I can and I don't want anything holding me back from this. People expect you to stick around for them but the second you start doing this you begin missing out on opportunities that could have changed your life. I want to see as much of the world as I possible can and preferably whilst I am young, I want to visit country after country, see things I've only ever dreamed about and it's the most exciting part of life to me. 

Commitment

How can you commit to something at such a young age? How do you know where you're going to be in 5 years time, or what you're going to be doing. A relationship means tying yourself down, as much as most people won't want to agree with this, it's completely true! The moment you get into a relationship, every little thing in your life changes, maybe it's for the better, but from my past relationships I know that I have missed out on so many opportunities and I will never forgive myself for this…plus, I can't even commit to watching a film on Netflix, I often get bored, committing to a person is a much bigger thing, but you get the idea. 

Sleep makes me happy

I like to sleep, I really do and other people wouldn't understand. The moment you say "I woke up at 2 today" you are going to get some funny looks. It doesn't make me lazy! You don't know how long i stayed up the previous night!

My Best friend > You

My best friend is my soul mate and that's pretty much it. The hardest person for anyone to compete with is her. I basically have a life partner in her…minus the, well, let's not go into that actually. Everything I could ever want to do in life I could do with her, without the whole "commitment" thing. I want to get a house with her? That's fine, we're besties, we're never falling out! I want to travel? I wouldn't want to travel with anyone but her, mainly because we are hilarious and it would be the most amazing experience ever. The only person in this entire world who isn't going to judge you for who you are is your best friend  they don't care if you've been sat in the same spot for 2 weeks straight watching continues episodes of Supernatural in your pyjamas with no make up on, in fact, they will probably applaud you for the fact that you've managed to watch 5 seasons of Supernatural in 2 weeks, that's a huge achievement. 

I hate people

How can you be in a relationship with another human being when you generally dislike most of the human population? It's just not really going to work is it? People do irritate me though, the stupidity and eagerness to irritate one another…no thank you! I'll be fine with 28 cats thank you!

Fictional characters and celebrities

I'm in a one way relationship with WAY too many people (Jensen Ackles, Zac Efron, Louis Tomlinson, Danny Jones, Luke Hemmings, James McVey, Justin Long, Shaun Sipos etc) and quite frankly, I just don't think that there is any room in my life for another guy.

I'm waiting for a mad man in a box.

The Doctor will come, contrary to popular belief he will and we will travel time and space together, lot's of wibbly wobbly timey wimey fun will be had…

I have an unhealthy relationship with my xbox

My xbox is my entire world, if I could spend my entire life playing xbox I would…I should have became a games tester! Seriously though, I can't get enough, games are my life, it's the thing I do as soon as I walk in from a long day of university…although it stresses me out more than university. Everyone who plays COD probably needs anger management, I am included in this. OH! Guess what you can get on xbox? NETFLIX! My relationship with Netflix is just too much. I recently started watching Orange Is The New Black, it took me around 3 days to finish watching 2 seasons of this show…I can't explain this okay! 

I don't have the time!

I'm a University student, actually, I'm a final year University student! This takes up A LOT of time, especially with being in my final year, I am forever writing scrips, completing paper work, completing coursework, doing assessments and it really is very time consuming. As well as this I have to split my time evenly between my two best friends…my actual best friend (Purple Tits) and my xbox and it's extremely hard to distribute the time evenly between the two. I also have a family! I already have no time left and I have to find some hours in my week to see them! Can you see my problem now?

My Degree 

This is the most important thing to me in my life right now and nothing can come in the way of it. I have messed up so many times in my life and this is the time I need to get it right! My degree determines my career and I won't be happy with anything lower than a high 2.1/1st, I haven't got myself into around £50,000 worth of debt just to get a degree classification that I am not happy with!

10 other reasons:

1. My life is too busy as it is for a relationship.
2. I hate having to tell someone everything about my life…what I've done all day, where I've been etc. 
3. I can't base my life around another human being…
4. I can't cook and I hate cleaning…do it yourself please!
5. I want at least 18 cats.
6. I hate meeting new people.
7. The Internet...
8. If you're in a relationship, you're expected to share your pizza…I don't want to share my pizza.
9. Nothing beats a food night and movie/television show marathon…NOTHING!
10. I'm awkward.

This is just the reasons why I am single, I'm happy for all those who are in a relationship and are happy, good for you! Everyone is different and that's just not what I want right now. 

Live your life for you, be happy, that's all that matters! 



Until next time! 

xo 

Books! The best weapons in the world

Books are truly amazing things and I absolutely adore reading, although quite admittedly I haven't actually done it for a long, long time.

Reading used to be something that would help me a lot. It was a way for me to tune out of the world. I'd turn everything off, relax and it would help me to forget life problems. I love different worlds they can transport you to, the different people they introduce you to, making you think you've known them for years. The fact that books can cause you to fall in love with a character when you know they are not real…boys in books are the best kind and should be real, why aren't they real?

I've found some really amazing books out there and I love the feeling of not being able to put a book down, no matter how tired you may be, because the book is so amazing.

The magic held within a book is something of a different world. It's insane where out imagination can take us to when reading. We can travel across county, worlds even time and space. Someones worlds can help you to set the scene and the people, which often results in you imagining this story like it's real life in your mind, like it's a past memory.

I miss the nights of curling up with a good book.

So I came up with a plan…I am going to start reading again and I am really excited about this! I feel it will help me to sleep, it will relax me before bed and might actually make me more of a stress free person. I'm going to read every night, trying to read at least one book every week and I can't wait to get stuck in. I might even start posting reviews on the book I have read, I'm not entirely sure about that yet but I will keep you informed.

So the first book I will be reading (as soon as it arrives) will be Giovanna Fletchers "You're the one that I want" and I must admit, I am super exited to start reading this book, I have wanted to for so long! Hopefully it will arrive soon.

Reading is a wonderful thing, there's so much magic held within them, don't let it go to waste!
xo

I want to break free

I feel like I'm trapped in one moment in time, nothing new happening, nothing to look forward to. It's just the same thing day in and day out, I need to get away…

I need to travel. I need to see what the world has to offer! I need to get out of my situation. All I want to do is start my life and I just can't.

The world is so big, so beautiful and I am stuck in this little town with nothing interesting every happening. Sometimes I wonder what life would be like for me if I was to live in a different country…maybe I would still feel the same, maybe I wouldn't.

It's hard to look around me and see everyone with their life planned out in front of them, with their jobs, their houses and children. It makes me wonder whether staying in education and going to university was a good idea. It has resulted in me not being able to start my life and that's all I want to do right now, I want to be free. I hate having to worry about getting assignments in on time and the one thing I cannot wait for is to not have to worry about getting an assignment in on time, it has resulted in so much stress. If there's one thing I hate about education it would be the fact that you're not free until it's over, you have to take your work home with you and you never, ever get a break…I need a break. I need to be able to feel stable and happy, with no stress. I hope that's what comes once I have graduated, I hope this isn't a permanent feeling. I have never in my life been so stressed over something as I have over university.

It sucks noticing how my life has nowhere near started in comparison to others. Those who didn't attend university now have jobs and children and for me? If that was to happen right now I would feel far too young, but I am 20 now and I think I forget that. We're not 16 anymore.

I'm going into my final year at University next month, it has absolutely flew by but it has been the most stressful experience of my entire life and I hope to never feel this much stress again, ever in my life. This is the end, it's finally going to be over! I mean I have enjoyed it, but by God have I hated it too.

I'm just looking forward to what the future has to hold, I'm looking forward to being free, having the time to relax and not worry about having that one assignment done on time. I can't wait to travel the world.

My life is about to begin and I hope the world is ready for me...
xo

Flash bursts

Isn't it crazy to look around you and think about how one day, not so far from this one today, you will be an elderly person, like those whom you may talk to on the bus, it's a completely crazy thought…

It'll happen in the blink of an eye. Suddenly everything will have changed and the only time you will notice is when you stop looking back at the days gone by and start looking at the years, that will be the moment you will wonder about how you got to where you are. Days turn into weeks, into months and into years, suddenly you're 60, 70, 80…That's the moment you will look back, the moment you will still feel as old as you do right now. That moment will come, the moment you look into the mirror as your once young self and notice the change. You will look back upon the amazing life that you have  behind you and wonder how you got to this moment in time so fast…it's as if you batted your eyes and suddenly you're much older than you once were. There will be flash bursts of past memories, they will all hit you at once and the only thing you will be able to do with them is smile…that's the moment you realise that you have made life your own.

Have you ever walked down the street or sat on the bus and noticed those whom are much older than yourself and wonder what they used to be like? When they were at the age we are right now…Their teenage/young adult years are now just a distant memory, a story to tell their loved ones. They are now parents, grandparents, possibly even great grandparents, one day that will be us.

When surfing the internet the other day I stumbled upon the following quote...


“Isn't it funny how day by day nothing changes, but when you look back, everything is different...”

― C.S. Lewis

This quote actually inspired me to write this post and it's possibly one of the truest quotes i have ever read. When you look at your life day by day you don't notice the change, everything happens gradully and over a long period of time, so long that you don't notice the changes. As soon as you look at the bigger picture, look at all the years that have passed by, you will notice every possible change, that's the moment it will seem like an eternity away. 

The future is always a interesting topic, it's quite a daunting thought, one day we will not be so young, so skinny and so pretty. You will never be as young as you are now, you will only age, but that just means you grow as a person too. The future is a wonderful thing, something to be excited about and you should be excited!

Life is just flash bursts of past memories, one day they will catch up with you and that's when you will notice how much has changed.

xo